Whirlwind! 01/24/2010
 
For those of you that are friends with me on Twitter, you've read a little bit about the headache that has been my life as of late. Between going through an educational crisis last week, to some craziness in my relationship over the weekend, I'm really hoping this week is calm in comparison (though that's doubtful, as I start a new job tomorrow). 

In a nutshell, a lot of the dramarama happened because of talking about future plans with the boyfriend. We were really dead-set on tying the knot earlier this month, but one big roadblock has been that I'm in school for a while and was considering law school. However, I started to ask myself, "Do I really want to do this?" Looking up statistics and finding a few blogs from former law students, I found that the option is a risky gamble; you invest six figures in loans, only to **maybe** have a job when you graduate, unless you have stellar grades or have connections.

So I started looking at every program under the sun outside of law that 1) I would enjoy 2) would be semi-lucrative and 3) would provide me a way to do school while Steve and I get married, settle at his base, etc. 

Some of the options I came up with were an MBA after working two years; a graduate studies program at the university near his base; online programs; etc. I pretty much scoured the Internet for any possible way to do law school online (clearly, there's no way), or to find Army bases near law schools so there could be some chance (a slim one, but still a chance) that we could be married while I'm law school.

Well, needless to say I've regained a little faith in my abilities to do law, so I'm happy THAT panic is over! Well, for now.

But of course, like the eye of the storm, the ensuing calm did not last long, and thus began The Fights. Fights over possible purchases, fights over feeling independent while being apart, and they all culminated today when, after a night of bad choices (which shall not be named here, but they were not wise by any means), we nearly were in Splitsville.

How does this happen??? How can everything go from being so good a few weeks ago to absolutely chaotic?! Sigh. Today's fight was basically all my fault, and I acknowledge that and take responsibility for it. But man, that was a wild ride! 

Weren't things supposed to be easier when he got stateside again? 

I just hope this week is far better than the hellish one that just passed.
 


Comments

Samantha

Sun, 24 Jan 2010 22:23:46

I'm so sorry! You should have called me!! I'm always here for you.

 

Wife of a Sailor

Sat, 30 Jan 2010 19:22:36

I gave you a bloggie award on my blog :)

 



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