Good & Bad 10/08/2009
 
There are pluses and minuses with everything in life. Many good actions or events come with both good and not-so-good outcomes. Example: setting the bar high for yourself during an exam is good, but on the other hand you have to do well from now on to maintain that grade. Another example: Earlier and longer R&R is awesome, but not so if you also have finals smack dab in the middle of it.
That's what has just come up today in my life; Steve will be back a little earlier and for longer leave! :) The downside, like I said, is because he's here earlier than we anticipated, I have to deal with finals more than I would have if he were still doing processing at his next base before coming home (we thought he'd get here mid-December, but it turns out he'll be home earlier than that!). And while I'm happy his leave is about 4 days longer than expected, this will be Year #2 of our relationship that New Years will be spent apart. 

I know I'm probably being petty about it and should just be thankful for him being home for a while, but it's difficult. I'm a junior in college and my life in general has been an uphill climb for me since Day 1. We've moved oodles (as you can see from my last blog post), and there have been times where life for me in general has felt very lonely because I don't have a really strong friend base (I do have VERY good friends all over the place, but I still keep myself from being close to people as a result of so many moves). 

In 8 months I'm taking the most important test of my young life thus far (the LSAT) and only get to see my boyfriend ~1 month before we're apart once again for who knows how long. I'm involved (probably over-involved) at school and busy with home life, and it's just a never-ending whirl of insanity that I can't shake or improve upon. I wish I could just find time to BREATHE and realize everything will work out, but will it? How do I know I won't just be doomed to fail in the end?

Today is just one of those days I want to swift-kick the Army for further complicating my life. The icky 9+ hours of rain around the area isn't helping my mood either. :( 

Let's hope for a good weekend (full of less crazy occurrences)! :)
 


Comments

Samantha

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 10:08:12 pm

But, he's coming home early! HAVE FAITH! Things will work out!

 



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