Meh. 08/31/2010
 
As we quickly approach the end of the month and the start of a new one, I've begun to reflect on everything going on in my life. It's gotten very busy with school starting last week! Somehow I have managed to balance work and school pretty well, even if at times I am very tired and want a break. But that's what Labor Day is for, right? :) I have work and school off for that, and I am VERY excited to have more than one day off that week, plus a shorter work week thanks to the library closing early.

Yet even with everything going on and exciting things coming up, I'm feeling apathetic. Not because I'm not happy to be marrying or to end undergrad soon, but there's just a general sense of "meh" in my world at times. 
 
 
I know my updates have been sparse, but you must forgive me! School has taken over most of my waking hours that work has not. It can be grueling at times to work on assignments rather than have fun, but I think I am learning some valuable things! For once, I'm super interested in every class I'm in and I hope I can do well!

Anyway, I'm mainly writing this post to vent a little bit regarding some misinformation from one of my professors. While you might think someone with a Doctorate would seek out the correct information about various topics, I saw this week that that's not always the case, especially when it comes to our nation's military efforts abroad.
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Not my school, or pic (click picture for location)
 
 
Welcome to another edition of Sunday Stories! If you want to participate, head on over to the Annoyed Army Wife's page to find out more!
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Since the Annoyed Army Wife decided to write about her Starstruck stories, I thought I would write about the last famous person I met: Mike Huckabee!
 
 
Yes, I know I'm quoting some lyrics from a fun country song by Luke Bryan, but I really do believe rain can be a good thing! Specifically for me, storms can be a good thing! If it weren't for the rain last night, I wouldn't have made a big decision (well, big for me). 

Guys...I've rekindled my love for writing. 

Now, I know this might be confusing. The site is called Megan Writes after all, isn't it? :) But what I mean is I've begun to see the value of the fictional stories I used to write when I was younger, not just the value of keeping up blogging about daily life and other ramblings I have. This passion was lost some time ago. Somewhere between high school and college, journals and writing fiction fell to the wayside.
 
More 08/18/2010
 
I know, a rare posting of two blog posts in a day! But I had a lot on my mind and I felt it was right to say it.

I have tried very hard not to complain very much on here. I know a lot of people have it worse off than me, and I want this to come off as nicely as I can. However, there's just something I need to say.

I am more.
 
 
I'm back! Well, I have been for a few days, but never really wanted to write anything.

Our trip to Canada was good! It was great attending my cousin's wedding, as it made me all the more excited for my big day in the winter! It was wonderful seeing family all together at the wedding. And the dancing that went on, hoo boy! Even my great grandmother, who will be 93 next month, was dancing up a storm! It was very memorable.

But as with every vacation, it must end, and end it did Monday, when we finally arrived home. But I came home with gifts! My family got me some wedding presents that I could bring home with me - and I have a KitchenAid on the way! Woo hoo! I am so excited to have a KitchenAid of my own! :) It's the little things that get me excited, haha.
 
 
Monday has nearly come and gone, and I have a lot on my mind at this late hour. It wasn't the busiest of days, but it wasn't too terribly difficult either. 

Today wasn't overly exciting, nor was it boring. It was pretty average for a typical summer work day. Later on, though, after I had clocked out and was having dinner, the What If's creeped back into my life.

You know all about What If's, right? They can take on any form. I like to think of them as shape shifting pieces of doubt that hang suspended in the air just outside of our thoughts, waiting to appear the second those two words enter our mind. The What If's came around today in a form I hadn't seen before; they formed the question, "What if we were legally married already?"
 
 
Despite what you would think, being born in Wyoming does not make me a country girl. I have fished for trout in Alaska, hiked on trails, swam in lakes, but I am far from country-fied. So every week when I go up to visit my mom, who currently lives on a 100 acre farm, I always surprise myself with the ease of adapting to the lifestyle.
 
 
So, looking at my past posts, I really don't talk much about anything at all, or am participating in MilSpouse Friday Fill-In (which is tomorrow, huzzah!). But literally every other post for a while has been that or tiny updates. I'll try to give you better substance! It was just hard over leave. I'm sure you all understand :) 

Anyway, recently DoD changed MyCAA, which is the Military Spouse Career Advancement Accounts. Now, as a fiancée of a military man, I really don't know a lot about it, but in reading about it and reactions to the new program versus the change, it looks like the changes are negatively rather than positively impacting spouses and their ability to reach career goals. 
 
 
It's finally hitting me that Steve is gone, AGAIN. Leave flew by way too quickly, and now it's back to the same routine, the same ways of communicating, the same wedding planning frustrations which come along with your fiancée being 1,000 miles from home.

You know what? I hate sameness. Having a routine is nice, but not when it involves being apart. Even though that has always been our routine, I wish it could come to an end sooner than December. Yes, December isn't far away, I know that. But I also know that I hate being apart more than anything. 

While he was here, I thought of a lot of "What if's" from the past relating to the biggest thing separating us from being together already: my education. Currently, I need 9 credits to graduate with a bachelors degree, which is only equivalent to three classes. 

But what if I had taken more classes in past semesters and could have been done in May? What if in doing that, we were together sooner - engaged in April, married over leave in July? What if I had been able to start a graduate program nearly a year earlier than my peers? What if, what if, what if. 

I'm sure God has a reason for me to be at school until December, some purpose for me to stay just a little longer at school than if I had been more diligent and added more classes in the past to my schedule. I don't know what that reason or purpose is, but I'm sure I will find out soon enough. 

Or maybe there isn't really a reason other than to let me live on my own just a bit longer before being married and living with someone for the rest of my life, or until the Army decides to reactivate him after he's done with Active Duty next year (I don't live in an unrealistic bubble, so I KNOW this could happen, even if I don't like it).

Anyway, those are all my random thoughts for the day haha. It was a lazy day, with some frustrations, but okay overall considering I didn't have work or anything to do but get groceries. Wedding planning is getting there, and hopefully it will continue to go smoothly!

Lots of love,
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